Saturday, July 12, 2008

things it's time i said


Goodbye Danny, originally uploaded by sMacshot.



___things i want to say out-loud, A LIST:
____-
fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.... [sigh]

___things i don't know how i'm going to manage, A LIST:
____- this week
____- the next six months
____- the next 3 years
____- the rest of my life
____- people's chatter
____- going back. being back. having to stay back
____- all the noise
____- sitting in cars with people asking me questions and me not being able to walk away

___places i'd rather be right now, A LIST:
____-
____-
____-___(what difference does it ever make?)

___things i know for certain, A LIST:
____-
____-
____-
_______(and gravity

___people i'm going to miss not having near, A LIST:
____-
____-
____-
_______(and surprisingly, since i rarely see them - jamjam and susie.


*__*__*

when i was 16, i first had a vision, an acute dream of myself, as a middle-aged man, having ruined his life, slouching into the corner of a large house he was alone in, staring idly away with reddish eyes, and bopping slowly left and right like a fiend dancing at an OD funeral.

i feel one year closer that that.
__(i wish i didn't know where it was going to end

____(gol, monz: it wasn't the year of miracles afterall. just the same as the last... minus the good things)



2 comments:

golriz said...

perhaps.

capone said...

somewhere we awaken to the promise of today and the hope of tomorrow.
this is our miracle.
this is who we are, and what we do.